| Im just not ready for this. |
[Oct. 26th, 2008|02:04 pm] |
In the brightest hour of my darkest day
I realized what is wrong with me
Can't get over you. can't get through to you
It's been a helter-skelter romance from the start
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Me and Gareth are taking a long term 'break' [I prefer to say it that way than to outright say split up]
we hope to get back together eventually
it ended on good terms, as good as it possibly could be - however it still feels like the mortar in the bricks that hold me together have melted away.
He wants to do his science a levels and get into Vet Medicine. Its also true that he needs to have fun in his life and be a teenager before its too late, which is exactly what I missed out on.
I want to be so selfish as this is hurting me so much and as much as i dont want it to ever ever end its time that for now we both go our separate ways.
Im hoping to go and do a years art and design foundation in Cardiff
Ive also got some basic tattoo experience lined up with a lovely female mobile tattooist, who understands how hard it really is for a woman to break into the industry.
Theres another reason for all this typing malarky.
Ive finally also decided that I need to break off the internet, for me its been a lifeline for years ive made both friends and enemies. Its whats stopped me for going insane from loneliness but now my life is starting to make a move. Maybe just maybe out of all this 'bad' some good will come of it, and ill finally be able to be my own person and not have to expect someone else to be my emotional crutch.
Ok im leaving it at that now because this is all to cliché for me!
catch everyone soon.
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| My Plan |
[Jun. 8th, 2008|02:45 pm] |
Ok I need to decide on a plan for the next few months
Part one:
- A drawing a day even if its a scribble in work to later play around with on Photoshop and Painter (if I can get a serial for damn painter x)
- Build up a traditional and digital portfolio
- Learn how to build sites, and build a basic art portfolio site
- Learn more about illustrator, and use it
- Get in contact with Leigh and organise to watch her tattoo
Part two:
- Consider attending a part time gorseinon college course, either:
That college is ages away, it means at least 30 mins on the train and plus another bus or taxi.
- Attend Tattoo convensions and give out covering letters and c.vs
- Advert in Skin Deep magazine
- Learn to drive
Part three:
- Get my apprenticeship
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| ok ok |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|08:36 pm] |
Please comment to be added, I love you all. |
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